In a couple of days everyone is going to have to deal with themselves and I am freaking out because I was a toxic, deceitful and evil person this month. I should have changed my ways a month before it was handed out to us all, that the time has come where everyone has to deal with themselves. When this time of the year comes around everyone changes thier ways a month prior, so that when they deal with themselves, it will be a much nicer and peasant person to be around. I knew that I had a month to change my behaviour so that when I deal with myself, it will be easier to handle. Like when hurandle was an asshole through out the year and when the time came where he had to deal with himself, he found it hard to handle himself.

So the month that had just gone, it was a hard month for me which required toxicity, deceitfulness and some evil. After the month has gone and everyone has dealt with themselves for a week, everyone goes back to their old self like normal. We deal with ourselves once a year to give us a taste of what we are like and get a taste of our own medicine and to reduce our own ego. Like when I became scared and full of dread when I realised that nobody had been killed for a couple of weeks and it felt so strange and uneasy for me. I am not use to living in a world where nobody gets killed or crime never being committed.

I had never lived in a place where no crime happens and it was really unnerving and I was praying for something to happen like a murder or some other heinous crime so that my nerves can calm. Only crime calms my nerves and now that I live in an area where crime hardly happens and protection is really high it has been making feel depressed, uneasy and like an alien. So I had to make myself feel easy and reduce my own anxiety by causing crimes. Like when I murdered palop in front of everyone in public and they all tried pointing at me but their fingers twisted and pointed in another direction, and so no body knew who was the true killer.

Then when I deceived hurat into going through a tunnel which was actually the mouth of a large creature, he went in and never came out. These two crimes I had committed had eased my home sickness as it made me feel at ease. I came from a crime ridden place and I am not use to living in a place where no crime happens, and it makes feel such terror when no crime happens. Now the time has come where I deal with myself and I am terrified as I will be dealing with an evil deceitful self for a week. Oh no here we go.