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I [F19] traveled to Mexico with two of my girlfriends for my birthday, we stayed there for a few weeks. We were visiting the country’s southwestern shores, in Oaxaca. One day, something both amazing and horrific happened to me.

The night before, my girlfriends and I had gone out partying and we took a bit of psychedelics (ecstasy), both of them ended up getting very fucked up and they were too hungover to do anything the next day. So, being one of the last days of our vacation, I decided to go to the beach alone. I asked a taxi driver if he could take me to a beach that wasn’t known by tourists, as I don’t like crowded beaches. He took me there and told me that I’d have to walk for about 15 min through a particular pathway within the jungle. I gave him a generous tip and started walking.

When I finally got there, I absolutely fell in love with the beach! It was about a mile long, not a single sign of civilization or any sort of development, just me, the sand, and the ocean. I felt whole. I saw this as an opportunity to finally go get myself a full bodied natural suntan, so I took off my bikini completely and laid naked on the beach. I put my earphones on, played some music and before I knew it, I fell asleep.

I don’t know how much time passed, but as I laid there naked with my eyes closed, I eventually I started feeling a very mild rubbing around my abdomen, it was gentle, as if I was being caressed with a feather by a longtime lover. I was in that state of consciousness where you’re not really asleep but you’re not really awake either, so I wasn’t even questioning the source of this sensation, it felt soothing and slightly sensual. I guess the psychedelics were still having an effect in my system because everything felt amazing. Music was still playing and I wasn’t thinking about anything, I was just feeling it in the moment (say no to drugs, kids!).

Anyway, after a few minutes, that sensation changed and I could clearly tell that I was being touched, someone’s hands were on my body. At first I got really nervous and scared, I didn’t move or open my eyes, I almost felt paralyzed, but for some reason, the touch still felt gentle to my skin, and in a subconscious way, I didn’t sense any danger, so I went along with it. I’m sure now that if I’d had this experience without having taken drugs the night before, my reaction would have been much different.

It felt erotic, something out of a novel. As I felt these hands go lower, my breath started to get heavier and heavier, I could feel the blood rushing to my vagina, I felt myself starting to lubricate. It was exciting, and a little scary, all at once. It got to the point were my body started to sway to the touch of those hands, it was as if my body was dancing with an unknown partner.

Then, suddenly, these hands grabbed my hips firmly, and pulled my body in their direction. I was still in the moment, I couldn’t get myself to open my eyes yet. I could feel myself dripping between the legs, and then, it happened… I felt myself being penetrated, I was so aroused and so wet that it hardly took two seconds for it to slip in and fill me up completely. It was an above-average sized cock, I instinctively gasped and moaned, loudly. I can not adequately describe with words the intensity with which I felt that cock violate me, it felt instantly orgasmic. A few seconds later after first being penetrated, the gentleness I mentioned earlier came to an end and things started to escalate, quickly. I was being thrusted violently and I loved it, but at the same time I felt disgusted with myself, though I still couldn’t bring myself to open my eyes.

As I opened my mouth to moan from the pleasure, I felt something else. While still being fucked and grabbed by the hips, I felt another set of hands pull my hair and move my head, I immediately had another cock penetrating my mouth, all the way to my throat. I got scared and I finally opened my eyes.

What came next is the hardest for me to write about, but I don’t want to spark controversy in this subreddit so I’m not sure if I should post. By the way, if there are ANY questions you’d like to ask, I’m open to answering, just be respectful please.

PD:

I had only talked to my therapist and my boyfriend about this before posting but, after months of therapy, having been raped led me to develop a profound rape kink and now I’m very much into CNC (consensual non-consent). I fantasize about being raped always and now it’s gotten to the point that I even ask my boyfriend to recreate it.

NSFW: yes

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