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Where i grew up it was ordinary for uncles, aunts and grandparents live around each other (I am not from the US btw), my cousin let’s call her Molly 2 years older than me lived just 5 minutes away and we used to visit and hang out alot as kids I was 5 she was 7, We used to play outside chasing butterflies, searching for ladybugs and staying the night with our grandparents (early 2000 no Facebook and Snapchat to poison our minds).
Fast forward I was 10 years old we decided to move because my mom had some issues with my dads family and really didn’t like the idea of being surrounded by them, so we moved to a different area but not too far about a half an hour away, this really effected our friendship my aunt comes to visit sometimes but not often.
Time goes by and I am about 13 I think (she is 15 by then), it was Christmas we went to visit grandma and everyone was there, I see Molly and realize it’s been a while because she is gotten taller and curvier her hair looked gorgeous, we talked for a bit and told me she wanted to speak to me in private, she tells me she messes me and got very lonely and told me she loves me, I wondered she is talking about loves me as a close friend and I right away I told her I love her too and I missed hanging with her, she got very happy and asked if she can kiss me, I was a surprised but I was a 13ish years old who’s hormones just started kicking I said yes, we kiss and she walked away.
We stayed at our grandparents for about a week and during that week we hugged, cuddled and kissed alot she started calling me baby and honey she was serious about this being a romantic relationship and I honestly didn’t think much of it I was just following her lead without putting any thoughts into it honestly, On the last day together at our grandparents I asked since we are boyfriend girlfriend if i can see her boobs and she didn’t hastate, that was the starting point of our sexual relationship, (I am not comfortable with going into further details because she was underage at the time)
Living half an hour away didn’t stop us from seeing each other and we had sex whenever we had the opportunity, our grandparents had a couple of spare rooms which made things easier and since we are childhood best friends no one suspected a thing.
Time goes by and each started having their own lives and got busy with highschool and stuff , we grew out of this boyfriend girlfriend thing but kept having sex just not as frequent, I knew what we were doing is wrong and we didn’t use protection and never wondered of any consequences we were naïve horny teenagers and that’s it, until one day (I am 16 she is 18) she tells me she is pregnant and she gonna keep our child I told her this is not gonna work and our parents will never agree with it especially since my mom have issues with most of my dad‘s family, but she kept talking about our thing like some forbidden love fairy tale, that moment I knew this has gone way too far it has to stop, I all the time wondered of this as fun secret fling thing but she thinks this is a fully committing serious relationship and we going to have a family together.
I had to tell her mother because she wouldn’t listen to reason and I didn’t have the balls to tell her I am not planning on growing old and raising children with her, I told her mom that she had a thing with some guy she was seeing and got pregnant and planning on keeping the baby, It didn’t take long just few days later she got an abortion but she got mad I am sure I broke her heart and shattered her fantasies but I believe it was the right thing to do.
I am 20 years old now and things pretty much ended there our conversation are nothing but small talks, sometimes I wonder whether I made the right decisions or not, I loved her I really did not at first but those two years were wonderful, I missed her, I missed the cuddles, the smell of her hair, the way she holds my arm and all the other sweet little things, those were some memorable times but it’s all over now.
I know I am going to get alot of “Sweat home Alabama” and “fake, you are a Karam horder” comments but so be it, its what it is.

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