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So, I was with this guy for a while, we broke up last year in the summer.

Things were good with him for a long time, I loved him a lot. But as time went on, I just found myself growing bored, and I couldnt put my finger on why it was happening. Looking back on it, I think i was lacking sexual stimulation. (we barely had sex, and when we did, it wasnt the best)

But anyway, I remember one day seeing this girl I knew from college, she was one of my best friends. I stumbled into her in the shopping centre, she was in the gucci store, buying loads of designer clothes, I could only imagine buying. I asked her how she could afford all this and she told me that she had started working as an adult model, I was a little taken back at first and didnt know what to think.

After a while of talking to her, I felt like patting her on the back to be honest, fairplay, she wanted something out of life and took it. I can respect that hustle. – And now it was really paying off for her.

I remember thinking about it for weeks…. not knowing what to do, feeling like I was wasting time and could make money so much easier than working a terrible job.

I brought up the idea to my boyfriend at the time, I decided to pitch to him that we have sex and post it online, he seemed to ‘like’ the idea but I think it was just to impress me… everytime I tried to record us and actually go through with it, it seemed like he at all times had an excuse.

Eventually i got the idea that he wasnt gonna help me. At this point I felt like I really did have no choice, if my own boyfriend wasnt gonna help me, I was gonna help myself.

So, I made a secret tinder profile, where I posed as a girl (Using random photos off of the internet) and put in the caption about needing guys to make sex tapes with, it felt wrong, like I was betraying my boyfriend, but I saw it as ‘company’ and it wasnt like I liked any of these guys anyway… right?

After a couple days I found the first guy who agreed. He seemed nice and really appreciated what I was trying to do, it was heartwarming. After a few hours of speaking we arranged for me to go round.

I remember the way he was stood there when I arrived at his house, I told him to be “sex ready” and i really didnt expect him to answer the door naked HAHA, I gulped when I saw his cock too… It was really fucking big

I didnt actually know how I was gonna take all of it, but I was excited to try. A few hours of fucking went by and I went home, I couldnt believe what I had done. I got home and eagerly uploaded it, the adrenaline was pumping through my body and it was such a turn on to watch myself getting railed by such a big dick…

A few weeks went by, and I continued to have guys opening my holes and entering me on camera, it was getting hotter each time I did it… I felt like a fucking pornstar. Looking back on it, maybe this was wrong, because of my situation with my boyfriend, but you know what? I dont regret a thing. It made me who I am today.

Eventually, one of the guys from university found my page (after about 6 months of me uploading videos) and it wasnt long before my boyfriend found out, and left me pretty quickly. I was pretty upset at first, but to be honest I dont think I loved him that much looking back on it now, or I wouldnt have done it, right?

NSFW: yes

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