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I just need somewhere to talk about this stuff lol, I’m sure my friends would think that he’s an asshole and that I’m an absolute freak but it’s so good. We’re both 18 so pretty young but I really do like him a lot ??

We’re both into sorta cnc, rapey kinda stuff, I’m not sure all the real names but I like being forced into stuff and he likes forcing me. It’s so fucking hot and it’s such a good change from my last boyfriend who preferred me to be dominant , I hate being the dominant one but I did it for him at the time but my current one is so dominant and gets so turned on from me struggling and I’m so happy that he does lol.

He’ll pin me down, I’ll move my head side to side to try to avoid his kissing but he’ll just hold me in place, he’ll spit in my mouth sometimes, he’ll touch my tits really roughly and he’ll call me a slut. He slaps my ass really hard, chokes me, pulls my hair, makes me gag on his cock, and shove a knee between my legs. Sometimes when we kiss he’ll push me up against a wall and it’s actually amazing. I all the time struggle as hard as I can but he’s stronger than me so it’s so easy for him to overpower me, which should scare me but it just turns me on even more. If it was any other guy I would fucking hate them but since it’s my best friend and boyfriend it just makes me so horny and I love the feeling of being so weak under him.

One of the hottest things is we were just talking and suddenly he put his hand up my shirt and started groping my tit, and I was pulling at his hand and telling him nervously to stop but he just kept doing it with this grin on his face. Holy shit it was hot as hell.

We have a safe word obviously, but I’ve never had to use it so far because he just knows how far to take it, and I trust him so much and I know he would never seriously hurt me. Outside of sexual stuff he is the cutest, most wholesome, sweet, and kind guy ever, he is very protective and helps me out in everything. And we’ll often break character in the middle of whatever we’re doing to laugh or talk, it’s really comfortable doing anything with him and it’s never awkward.

We haven’t had piv sex yet because the one time he put it in it hurt too badly so we had to stop (I wasn’t a virgin before but I think he was just thicker so it hurt more), and there hasn’t been a rush for us to do it yet since we’re both pretty happy with what we do now. I suck his dick a lot and we’ll usually just masturbate together and he’ll say dirty things in my ear that get us both off—it’s basically amazing.

I love him. He’s so perfect to me. I miss him. Maybe eventually we can create up to him actually saying the word rape explicitly, right now he’ll say things like “I want you to scream for help” or “I’m gonna make it hurt” which are like non con aspects and I love it but I think hearing him say the word would be soooo hot, I’d have to talk about it with him though it might be too much, but I’m fine with anything.

Trying to think of more things I can do to fight back besides struggling, biting, and making like scared sounds lol

NSFW: yes

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