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I (19F) take Portuguese lessons twice a week on Zoom from a 33 year old Brazilian guy Thiago based in Rio. In the past 6 months I have become increasingly sexually obsessed with him to the point of completely taking over my life. The first time I realized this was becoming an problem was when my boyfriend (also much older than me, also Brazilian and the reason I am learning the language in the first place) was fucking me from behind and I imagined Thiago was doing it instead. Every time his cock slammed into me my knees almost buckled into the bed, it was so intense.

The way that Thiago looks at me sternly when I fuck up something in class (I have private lessons) is the way I want him to look at me before he fucks the living daylights out of me. Yesterday I masturbated with a vibrator and dildo just listening to a recording of him speaking. It was literally just him going over verb tenses. I still came so hard, felt awful about it, then went for round 2. He has the most amazing personality.

When I am in the shower I put on music and imagine us in the club, run my hands all down my body and into my pussy, just wanting him to fuck me so bad, I want him to do it and feel guilty about cheating on his wife. Somehow, terribly, it also turns me on that I’d be cheating on my conventionally attractive, well-off partner as well.

I know that he thinks I am a bit spacey and sort of a spoiled princess and I want him to beat some sense into me. He is very casual in class and oftentimes references sex or bad words! Sometimes when I use bad words myself he will laugh because he says I look too innocent to say those things. Little does he know…

I can barely face him sometimes when I masturbate to him 20 minutes before seeing him on video call. I want him to masturbate to me too, not intentionally, want him to cum and picture my face and not quite know why. I know that he thinks I’m very young, and I want him to feel that guilt when he fucks me. I want him to fuck me in the classroom in Rio when everyone else has gone, I want to ride him and to look into his eyes while he feels how tight my 19 year old pussy is. I’ve never heard him speak English and so I want him to degrade me in Portuguese.

I am moving to Rio next year and honestly don’t know if I can handle meeting him in real life…he said he would come teach me in person. Praying that this obsession fades but for now it is painfully real…

NSFW: yes

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