Damn, another day of loneliness, how long has it been since I had another man in my bed? A year maybe two, I don't know, I need to get my mind off of this so what's on TV. Oh theirs been a murder, a man died in his apartment well that's……. good I hope he suffered, that's what he gets for being a man braking and abusing women like me I hate all men they deserve to die like that, I'm laughing at how scared he must have been ………hahahahahahah, like all they care about is looks, like I've tried losing weight and my belly don't go it keeps getting bigger, or so they say, because that's what everyone says, because apparently my stomach is to big, like something is living in it or I'm pregnant ( I wish) but I don't need them or want them. "Sigh" my head hurts I should eat something. Now what was that song my mom sang to me "hmmm" oh I know " I don't want a big Mac or or non of that" "give me Mac and cheese because I want all of that"

OW! FUCK WHAT WAS THAT, felt like something kicked me in the stomach, god damnit! that hurt. Why did it happen tho, hmph I drop my spoon wait is that blood, why am I bleeding, why were am I bleeding from…… FUCK I got that gut punch again FUCK I got to throw up, come on "hull" "hull" WHAT THE FUCK IS COMING OUT OF ME, what the fuck is that, ITS A WHOLE FUCKING MONSTER it looks like a goblin, and why do I not feel pain fu……