I prefer it when people hate me and now they are all loving me and it disgusts me. They are all smiling at me and being all good towards me, and I know it’s all fake. It’s niceness out of fear and I am becoming so sick with them all being so nice to me. I don’t want you to be nice to me and I prefer seeing people’s real side when they are horrible towards me and when they all smile at me when I walk past them, I become enraged. I prefer it when they hated me as it is so much more simpler.

Then I hear the things what they say about me which is “be nice to Pakor for he is our destroyer, our doom, our chaos and he will tear us down at any moment. Be nice to pakor for he is the harsh times in our life, he is our death, he is our judgment and he is the coming storm. So be nice to pakor” and this just proves that they are only being nice because they are afraid of me and doing it out of necessity. It’s the worst kind of niceness and ever since they found out what I am to them, they try to be nice so that I will be less harsh towards them.

I hate the free favours they try to give me or the free food. I hate how they try invite me into their homes and have me as a guest. How I wish they would start to hate me again and instead of all this niceness towards me, I wish they went back to being savages towards me. I don’t think they will ever be like that towards me ever again and I hear them say more things about me which are “be even more nice to pakor for he is our resurrection after he kills us, he is our refuge after he tortures us, he is the cure for our hunger after he starves us and he is our chance at survival. Be very nice to pakor”

No no didn’t be nice to me as I find it insulting and I prefer it when you lot hated me it was honest, it was pure, it was natural and there were no complications. Now you all have a million masks that I have to figure out a way round, but then again whether you are nice or horrible towards me, I am your end. Being horrible towards me makes it easier.