I love my bf so much, but the difference in our sexual interests has been a frustration for me. He leans heavily on the vanilla side of things and has a fairly low sex drive – he’s content with us having sex once, maybe twice a week. I would be happier having sex significantly more often, and I definitely lean toward the darker side of the kink spectrum.
We’ve talked about it a good bit, at least the parts I can distribute with him without completely freaking him out lol, but I guess he hasn’t really understood. Or maybe he hasn’t really believed I meant what I’ve said.
This past week I wasn’t feeling well and I spent a couple of days mostly in bed. Yesterday I was feeling better, but still felt sort of wrung out so I still spent most of the day laying in bed.
My bf was being really sweet and laid with me for a while, just cuddling and talking. When he went to get up he sort of patted me on the butt and said, “Hurry up and get better, I’m really horny.”
I know I’m text that sounds insensitive and selfish, but his tone was playful and that’s just sort of how he jokes. But at the same time I could tell he really did want to fuck me. And nothing turns me on like him wanting me like that, especially being a little demanding about it, even as a joke.
I was facing away from him, so I just reached down and pushed my shorts down my legs a little. I rolled over so I was half on my side and half laying on my stomach.
He was like, “Really?”
I just smiled sleepily and nodded.
He curled up behind/on top of me and started kissing my neck. After a minute he pulled down his shorts and pushed himself into me. He ended up pushing me flat on my stomach and fucking me like that – one of my favorite positions btw.
Afterwards he was like, “I can’t believe you wanted to have sex when you feel so rough.”
I said “always,” but I tried to sort of laugh like it was mostly a joke but he must have realized it. He said, “You’re serious, aren’t you? You’d let me fuck you no matter how you felt?”
I was sort of embarrassed but he was still halfway laying on top of me which was still turning me on. So I closed my eyes to the embarrassment and said “yeah”
He said, “So no matter what you’re doing or feeling, if I ask to have sex you’ll say ‘yes’? And won’t be upset?”
I sort of wanted to scream “I’ve been trying to tell you this for years!” Lol but I didn’t want to ruin the moment. So instead I said, “Don’t ask. Just tell me what you want … or just do it.”
I don’t know what his initial response was. I was so scared of what he’d think that I didn’t open my eyes to see his expression. But after a second he kissed my cheek and said “I might just have to take advantage of that.”
I guess it’s not really a great story. There isn’t a lot of drama or excitement lol. But it was really exciting for me. I don’t know if it will really change anything, but I’m really excited to see what happens.