No person in this story is under 18 years of age nor are they playing a role of an underage person.

8/17/2022

So, I guess today is the day I give in and admit that I am addicted. I have suspected that I have been addicted to sex for quite a while, but I have all the time found a way to convince myself otherwise. But I have risked my marriage, my relationships with my neighbors, my job and my self-respect in a never-ending quest for a bigger and better experience.

I would love to tell you when it began, but it has just all the time been. As a teenager who was repulsed by homosexuality, I immediately gave in when it was presented to me. I fucked my best friend’s girlfriend when he had asked me to go out with her so she wasn’t alone and bored. I fucked her in my mom and dad’s bed. I fucked hookers after I got married. I went after a stripper and got her to go out with me and I came off as such a nice guy we started dating. I lost interest after we fucked and I knew I could get away with it without my wife’s knowledge.

I started hanging around porn stores and ended up getting my cock sucked at gloryholes, but eventually it led to me sucking cock and even getting spit-roasted one day.

Then I started to feel guilty and rededicated myself to church and tried to stop. For a few years. But then, the advent of the internet and easy access to porn I started to masturbate always to filthier and more debased porn.

Then I ended up hooking up with a girl who was twenty to my forty-four. She was as addicted to sex as I was and there were no limits, but we destroyed each other. My wife took me back and I tried to stop, only to slip with the same girl again.

The second time around there were really no limits.

Then it was over and I felt guilty again and wiped all the porn off my computer, lost her number and went back to church.

But my wife no longer interested me sexually. We haven’t had sex in 15 years. But I started watching porn again and soon I was watching BBC porn and stuffing enormous butt plugs all the way in my ass. Then I started dressing up in girls’ clothes and watching sissy hypno porn and imagining I was the girl all the time.

Then I had the nerve to go out as a girl. Quite frequently actually, and I was never caught. But, then the guilt thing again.

I disposed of everything and dedicated myself to church. But here I am today in tights, a butt pad, a dress and a wig while waiting on my heels and 44H breastplate that is to be delivered tomorrow. I am dressed as a woman rubbing my pretend clit imagining that I am getting fucked by all the big cocks on my screen.

Friday, I plan to go to the porn theater as a woman and let everyone and anyone there do anything they want to me. My latest king is I really want to drink piss. I drank mine yesterday and I hope I drink a lot Friday. I want some guy or guys to manhandle me, but I have had a hard time getting anyone to in the past.

There is, however, one black guy with a perfect cock who has fucked my face several times and he assumes control when he sees me, but it has been months. I hope he is there. There was also one guy who watched to movies while I continued to suck him and swallow his cum. The last time, it was almost an hour and he came four times and told me he didn’t have any left.

I want to be used all day.

Normally, I wear opaque panty hose under a skirt or dress or sometimes pants, but Friday I believe I will wear thigh highs with panties and a ridiculously short skirt. I’ll take the panties off after I am in the back leaving my ass and cock hanging out in the open for anyone to do anything with.

I would love to be sucking a cock or two and have a big cock enter me from behind without even asking.

8/18/2022

My wife is home today. My new H cup breastplate came and I had to hop out and get it before she saw it. If she had, I would have had to try to cover up what was in the box. It has be excited.

It contains my big tits and my stripper heels. I want to try them on so badly, but I can not afford to get caught. I just stashed the box.

My wife went to visit out kids and my mind keeps wandering to that unopened box. I want to open it so badly. My wife went to see our kids and I could but I have no idea how long she will be gone.

Writing about it made it worse. I put the breastplate on. It is perfect. Large soft breatsts with plenty of pliancy and bounce. I am sitting here with them on facing the window so if she gets home I can get it off quickly and hide it.

I had forgotten how much I love having tits.

I gave in and tried the shoes too. I walked around the house and I love the way these shoes make me strut and male my tits bounce.

I feel so bad sitting here and yet I feel amazing. I want to keep it on and dress up but I can not.

Tomorrow for sure.

8/22/2022

Friday didn’t go as planned. My daughter called me first thing in the morning on her way to the hospital. I met her there and spent the rest of the weekend with her.

Priorities.

But, every time she was asleep my mind drifted off to wearing my clothes and going out again and getting totally abused by a bunch of men.

It’s 2:28 am Monday morning. My wife is in her room asleep and I am completely dressed sitting at my computer watching porn and masturbating. Well, I am actually NOT masturbating on purpose. I am playing with my tits and rubbing my little clitty while I imagine I am the girls in the videos being destroyed.

I want that.

My wife is off today and we are gonna take my daughter home. She is being released today. Tomorrow my wife goes back to work and I will definitely be gonna Bush River. I have a choker that say CUM SLUT in big sparkly letters and I will have my tits hanging out and will let them do anything they want to me.

If they don’t go far enough, I will encourage them. I have done that before. I have told men to smack me, to spit on me and to call me whore, fag and slut. But I want to be pissed on and I want to be completely dominated. I am gonna keep pushing.

If I get what I want, I will have the whole room using me.

9/2/2022

Things didn’t work out as I had hoped. My daughter ended up in the hospital on the 22nd. She had some pretty severe digestive disorders. She got out a few days later and the next day my daughter in law had what they have referred to as a feasible mini stroke.

Needless to say, I had other concerns. I did, however, remain true to myself. I wore panties and dark stockings under my clothes all day every day. I got to the point where I forgot about it and wasn’t even worried if they showed.

But, today is the first day things are back to typical. I worked yesterday, my first day back since taking off to be with the kids, and I am off today.

I woke up and was in front of my computer watching sissy hypno porn and playing with myself and edging until the point where I lost control. Suddenly, the urge hit me uncontrollably to get out my breasts.

I put them on while watching my porn. I put on a pair of skinny stretch jeans over floral panties and a top that bunched my exposed tits up in a beautiful mound of cleavage. I put on my leather choke that say CUM-SLUT in large shiny letters to cover the edge of my breastplate. I donned my wig and put on my wife’s nicest watch.

I think I just planned on jerking off, but once I was dressed the urge to go out was over-whelming. So, I walked out the door in the highest platforms I have ever walked in. I was so bad it was dangerous. I almost twisted my ankle on the way to the car and I briefly imagined myself lying on the ground writhing in agony with a severely twisted ankle and my neighbors coming out to see me there all dressed like some sort of perverted freak.

Fortunately, I recovered my balance and made it to my car. I felt my usual mix of excitement and anxious nervousness on the half hour drive. Once I got out of my small hometown, I purposefully made eye contact with every neighboring car at a red light or as I passed them.

Nobody noticed me at all.

I got to Bush River and paid my eleven dollars and there were only a couple of people in the theater. I sat in one of the theaters that was showing straight movies, this particular film was POV blowjob films. I sat on the sofa in the front facing the entrance so everyone could see me.

I waited to be noticed.

The same two guys wandered in and out, sizing me up but made no attempt to talk or even come close. Then, finally, a new guy showed up.

He walked in and stood just inside the door for a few minutes. I squeeze my tits together hoping he would notice and sense an invitation. He didn’t. I patted the seat beside me lightly and he noticed that.

He came over and sat beside me. We sat there looking at the movie for a couple of minutes before he reached out and stroked my leg. I looked into his face, a middle aged, slightly greying man, and smiled as I slid my hand toward his cock.

No pretense.

“Can I suck it?” I whispered in my best imitation of a female whisper.

He lifted the baggy leg of his sweat pants to reveal and unremarkable cock. It wasn’t very small but not large either. I knew immediately that deep throating it would be no issue, so I leaned over and immediately took it deep into my mouth.

Usually, guys have either a musky odor or have cleaned and added some sort of fragrance. He had neither. There was no discernible smell of any kind. But I took it deep and held there while I stroked the underside of his head with my tongue.

“Oh yes” he moaned, and I started to worship his cock, taking it in and out, going all the way to base and back to the tip pausing to lick his head before I slowly took him in again. My fingers cupped his balls and I felt his hand slide across my back to the top of my ass.

He played with the edge of my jeans and when I took him deeper, I noticed he slid his hands deeper into my pant working toward my ass. I took him deeper again and he forced my pants down slightly. I did that a couple of more times until his fingertip found the edge of my ass hole.

I wiggled my ass against his finger and allowed him to force my pants lower, and suddenly his finger plunged into my ass. He was only in an inch or so, but as I deep throated him, he was violently shaking my ass with his finger.

I took his cock all the way in and paused as I shoved my ass into his finger. He took the hint and inserted another finger. He fucked my ass violently as I sucked his cock.

Then, before he came, I stopped to catch my breath. As I say up a bit, he started to fondle my tits. I took one out and he started to suck it.

Here is where things went off the rails. I took his head in one hand as I continued to stroke his cock with the other. I guided his head to my nipple, moving his head to control his sucking.

You cannot imagine how many perverted things enter your head when you spend as much time jerking off to porn hypnosis videos as I do, and this was one of those times.

“That’s it. Suck Mommy’s tits” I whispered in my most seductive voice.

He pulled back from my breast in shock, and I forced his face quickly into me.

“Don’t stop. Mommy wants you to suck her tit. Be a good boy.” I said as I continued to stroke his cock.

His shocked reaction turned me on. I love to chock people and I was now hooked.

“Suck Mommy’s tit, baby. When you are done, Mommy is going to suck your cock. Mommy is going to drink your milk. Don’t you want Mommy to drink your milk?” I said.

He continued to lick my tit, but apprehensively. I shoved his face hard into my chest, and put a little edge into my voice.

“If you don’t suck Mommy’s tits, Mommy won’t suck your cock anymore. You don’t want Mommy to get angry and leave, do you.” I asked.

He didn’t answer, so I pulled my tit away from him and said “Tell Mommy you want her to suck your cock.”

I started to put my breast back inside my top, and he quickly said “Mommy, suck my cock”.

“That’s a good baby” I said as I pushed his face back into my chest and started to stroke his cock again.

I began to escalate.

I kep whispering, “Mommy wants to suck your cock. Mommy wants all of your cum, but Mommy wants to know you want Mommy to. Tell Mommy you love her tits.”

“MMMM, I love your tits” he said weakly.

“NO” I said harshly, “Tell MOMMY you love her tits”

“Mommy, I love your tits” he said as he looked up at me.

I took my hand off his cock and rubbed gently down the side of his face.

“That’s better baby” I said as I stroked his face. “Ask Mommy to hold your cock.”

“Mommy, hold my cock” he whispered and I noticed that the other guy was standing there watching us.

I began to perform in earnest.

“Mommy wants to make Baby’s cock feel better.” I said as I stroked a little faster.

“Tell Mommy you love her tits.’

He hesitated and I didn’t. I grabbed his head and pulled it away from me.

“TELL MOMMY YOU LOVE HER TITS” I said forcefully.

“I love your tits” he said.

I slapped his cock and said “I LOVE MOMMY’S TITS.”

“I love Mommy’s tits” he said breathlessly.

“Show Mommy. Show Mommy you love her tits” I whispered seductively.

He began to worship my large fake tits as I moved his head around and deeper into my chest while stroking his cock fast.

“Ask Mommy to suck your cock” I commanded.

He immediately replied, “Mommy, please suck my cock.”

I leaned back over into his lap and took his cock slowly into my mouth and began to suck it as I played with his balls, slowly working my fingers under him to his ass.

He moaned, and I suddenly felt a spasm in his shaft. I began to take him balls deep over and over until I felt his sperm shoot into me. I swallowed every drop.

Looking into his eyes, I said “Mommy loves your cum.”

He immediately stood up and pulled the leg of his pants down. He stormed out of the room as if trying to leave the shame of what he had just done behind. But before he was out of the room the other guy sat down right where he had been moments ago and began to pull his cock out.

Without hesitation, I took it into my mouth. It was flaccid, and even though it was soft, it was larger than the first guys. Try as I might, however, he never got hard.

I lost interest fast, and there was no one else there. So I stopped, hoping he might grab my head and force me back on his cock or talk dirty to me or call me a slut or a whore. But, he did nothing.

So, I got up and left.

I felt dirty all the way home, and I loved every minute of it. I could taste the semen in my mouth, and feel the way it coated it. I wanted more, but was done for the day.

I came home and kept my clothes on all day until about 4:30 when I had to take them off and hide them for fear of getting caught by my wife. I masturbated and watched hypnosis porn off and on the rest of the day. I probably came 5 or 6 times.

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