NSFW: yes

I grew up in a rather sheltered conservative Christian environment and had intense anxiety and shame about sexuality. I discover it ironic that I was raised to view sex as something intimate and romantic, but once I began to rebel in school I grew to enjoy having rough and degrading sex with my partners. We would often times do CNC situations where they would fuck me so that I felt helpless and vulnerable and I acted as if I had to submit and take it, protesting verbally enough to make it feel extra dirty. Since then romantic sex has really fallen on the wayside for me and I need to feel used in bed.