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I’ve been in a LDR with my first Dom for about a month now…early on we learned that I had some sass and attitude and I was labeled as his “Brat”. Most mornings I am given a task and this morning I was told that I had to write about my feelings about one of the experiences that I have had so far.

What experience should I write about? Candle wax? Ice cubes? Spoons? Popsicles?Being a brat and having to wear my panties inside me until I’m told to take them out? Nipple clamps on and a remote controlled vibrator in me while cleaning my car? Or practicing deep throating a dildo so that when the time comes to meet in real life I can let him cum down the back of my throat with no issue? Hmmmm?

It was my choice…so I chose to write about him controlling when and where I can cum…I want nothing more then to please him anyway that I can.

Sir can call me at any time and just say “NOW” and I have to attempt to get myself off no matter where i am or what I am doing. I usually have a time limit to complete this task. When I’m about to cum I must ask for his permission to cum. “May I cum, Sir?” He can either tell me yes or no. To cum for him on command is absolutely gratifying to me.

When he tells me yes that I can cum for him I let go. I let go of everything and just cum and I cum hard. Sometimes I am home or in my car and I can be me, loud. Letting it all out. Screaming and moaning. It feels amazing. Knees get weak, legs begin to shake. One of my biggest turn ons is him watching my while I cum for him. Complete eye contact, until I close my eyes and he tells me to “look at me”. Not going to lie sometimes I close my eyes on purpose just so he yells at me and sends shivers up my spine with his control over me. Fuck! Another one of my favorites is him letting me cum while he is around people. I am all the time on FaceTime and in his ear for this. To watch him watch me while he is out or in a work meeting drives my fuxking crazy. I love to see him try and pay attention to what is going on around him while I’m screaming in his ear that I am cumming. His grin on his face as he looks up to see what’s going on at work while I’m begging him to please let me cum once more, makes me even wetter. Then there comes times when I can’t be loud or make any sounds because I am in public. Fucking almost next to impossible for me. Sir will make me wear a remote control vibrator into the grocery store. It’s not that easy walking around getting your groceries with a swollen clit and cum dripping down your legs. And when you wanna cum because he turned the vibration up down the cereal isle??? Well damn!! I squeeze my legs together hold on to the buggy and let it go, quietly. Breathing harder and harder just letting the orgasim take over my body. It feels amazing!! I grab my cereal and on to the next isle I go. Just last weekend I went to breakfast alone just him and I on FaceTime sitting in the booth, vibrator in and on while he watched me eat my pecan pancakes squirming in my seat wanting to cum. Every time the waiter would come to my table he would change the vibrations. What a feeling! But I knew that I had to also have control over my body, no loud sounds or moans were aloud! I made it through it!!! I came! No one saw or heard me!! When I got up I noticed the seat at the booth had my juices on it! I walked out of the diner knowing that I had accomplished something and I was proud!

Ughhh….when he tells me I can’t cum!!!!! How frustrating!!!! I just worked so hard rubbing my clit and I can’t cum???? Panties are soaking wet!! Not fair!!! How can he do this to me!!! I don’t like it…at all. I get so amped up I just wanna let it all out!! Scream and moan but he says “no” to me. I’ll ask again and again and he will repeatedly say no. Most of the time I will listen to him and just stop. There are other times that I am so amped up and I feel I can’t control myself that I just cum even though I was told not to. I know there will be consequences for my behavior, but sometimes I just can’t help it. And sometimes I look forward to my punishments!

Prior to this I could never cum on my back or with out any help from toys. He has built me cum by just looking at him and rubbing my clit up against me jeans. Those times have been some of the best orgasms I have ever felt. Like my insides are exploding. My whole body tingles and I must say that when I can do this I feel super proud of myself! My record so far is cumming 12x, which is absolutely insane to me!

Over all, him having control over when I can and can’t cum has been absolutely breath taking to say the least. Im kinda hoping I get a phone call sometime today and just here if the words “NOW” come out of his mouth.

NSFW: yes

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